LOST IN SPACE

Its a lonely voyage...there's no spacific destination, no spacific direction and no spacific meaning...home is far...and oxigen is limited, breathing gets harder by the minute...survival is a question by itself...all I can do now is to continue to work...continue to repair, continue to build, hoping it will at least bring some meaning...but the work itself is a very lonely task...wondering why I got this far at the first place...I am really lost...

SOMETIMES ALOT OF SMOKES JUST GETS INTO CHUBBY'S EYES...

When She Loved Me
Sarah mc lachlan

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
And when she was sad, i was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy, so was i, when she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall, we had each other, that was all
Just she and i together, like it was meant to be
And when she was lonely, i was there to comfort her
And i knew that she loved me.

So the years went by, i stayed the same
And she began to drift away, i was left alone
Still i waited for the day, when she'd say "i will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten, never thought she'd look my way,
She smiled at me and held me, just like she used to do,
Like she loved me, when she loved me

When somebody loved me, everything was beautiful,
Every hour we spent together, lives within my heart
When she loved me...

COMPULSIVE DISORDER...

Lately, I had a chance to sit in a mall quietly for sometime...At a corner I started to look to people walking by...beautiful it is to see people getting ready to work, some dressed up nicely, some uniformed, some happy, some rushing, some alone and some...couples...I started to think to myself what a wonderful feeling to have a love one to go to work with... some of them even looked like li siah, in different situations...some look like her when she is working, some look like her when she's going out with me, reminded me of some of the things we had done before, lovely to have the feelings again, lovely to have the happy feelings again...I smiled...and I smiled...again...and again...

As I was enjoying the moment, I realised that more and more people started to look like her, young ladies, working ladies, middle aged women, matured women and sometimes even men started to look like her...before I know it...the whole mall was filled with Images of Li Siah...She was everywhere...She was the model on the picture, she was the lovely child walking with her mother, she was the beautiful mother of a bunch of beautiful kids...there was just so many different kinds of Li Siah arround me then...I knew that my imagination was running wild, but I enjoyed it, every moment of it, never wanted it to stop never wanted it to end...

And as I was smiling to myself enjoying the moment, I realised that at a quiet cornet lays a broken down machine, a machine which needed help, which I knew I could help...I gently picked up my screw driver...and headed back to work, before some boss start to yell at me...I was working too...lonely...