Thursday, August 03, 2006

COMPULSIVE DISORDER...

Lately, I had a chance to sit in a mall quietly for sometime...At a corner I started to look to people walking by...beautiful it is to see people getting ready to work, some dressed up nicely, some uniformed, some happy, some rushing, some alone and some...couples...I started to think to myself what a wonderful feeling to have a love one to go to work with... some of them even looked like li siah, in different situations...some look like her when she is working, some look like her when she's going out with me, reminded me of some of the things we had done before, lovely to have the feelings again, lovely to have the happy feelings again...I smiled...and I smiled...again...and again...

As I was enjoying the moment, I realised that more and more people started to look like her, young ladies, working ladies, middle aged women, matured women and sometimes even men started to look like her...before I know it...the whole mall was filled with Images of Li Siah...She was everywhere...She was the model on the picture, she was the lovely child walking with her mother, she was the beautiful mother of a bunch of beautiful kids...there was just so many different kinds of Li Siah arround me then...I knew that my imagination was running wild, but I enjoyed it, every moment of it, never wanted it to stop never wanted it to end...

And as I was smiling to myself enjoying the moment, I realised that at a quiet cornet lays a broken down machine, a machine which needed help, which I knew I could help...I gently picked up my screw driver...and headed back to work, before some boss start to yell at me...I was working too...lonely...

1 comment:

AAA said...

"Life is the way your heart is, it is a celebration. It is not in success that you succeed. It is in the within that you succeed first."